Freedom
Free will. I use it in my work. Never questioned it. But it seems like in Western philosophy people talk a lot about determinism. They have arguments against freedom. So I asked myself, why do our ideas look so different?
During my childhood, I got two perspectives, two ways of seeing freedom. One from the Eastern Orthodox Church, and another one from local pagans and occultists.
Pagans believe in chaos. We come from it. We return to it. It is home. It is freedom. Absolute freedom. And even when we stuck in a limited material body, we still carry a piece of chaos inside. This is our nature. This is who we are. By embracing the chaos, we get the freedom to do anything. To change the world. I like this position. There is something in it.
Christians believe in the same chaos, but they associate it with sins. They agree that we all have it inside, but they say it's dangerous. It's like a spiritual sickness. It makes you do stupid things. You'll get hurt by following it. This is not the kind of freedom that would be wise to have.
They talk about self-preservation a lot, actually. They give you a list of things that you're supposed to do to survive and protect your kin. They may call it a God's will. The right way to be. They appreciate when you control your will and work hard according to their rules.
Both parties agree that we do include some chaos inside us, some freedom to change things, but they have different opinions on what we should do with it. Some say we should embrace the chaos and change things just because we can, and some say we should work to control it and preserve ourselves. This duality stuck very deep in my head, and, apparently, it got reflected in my work.
In the English-speaking world, at least in debates on YouTube and Reddit, people are greatly influenced by Protestantism. They talk a lot about faith, grace, and divine things that generally happen on their own. They don't really talk about chaos and preservation, and they don't talk about your personal actions that make the difference. You just need to have faith and the universe will take care of everything else. Psychological determinism fits quite naturally in this cultural environment. Things had been set for you already. You will not change anything. Freedom is an illusion.